Because I can..

27 random questions

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
- Wow, I look really tired and scary... let's fix that.. wait I'm too lazy.

2. How much cash do you have on you?
-Around $40

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
-MORE!

4. Favorite planet?
-er.... Saturn!

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
My very bestest friend Kelly Ann Hyde

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
-Bicycle Race by Queen! yeah!

7. What shirt are you wearing?
-Plain white boring t-shirt

8. Do you "label" yourself?
-.. try not to, depends on the day

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
-bare feet baby! As always:)

10. Bright or Dark Room?
-Bright!! That's why my room has all 5 walls painted different bright colors!


13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
-Uh... watching a movie!

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
-It snowed!! I went Sledding!! -Alyssa Barker

15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
-1,000's of miles across the ocean!!!

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
MEOW!!

17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
-The last person to say that to my face was.. my friend Lucy

18. Last furry thing you touched?
-Furry? Probably my little stray cat friend that hangs outside of my dorm who I named Sophie :)

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
-I've finally gone clean!

20. How many rolls of film do you need developed?
-zip,zero, nada

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
-....Seven! Yes! I loved being a little kid!

22. Your worst enemy?
-The alarm clock

23. What is your current desktop picture?
-Picture of my sister, my cousin, and I all hugging

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
-meow..

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
-ability to fly of course!

26. Do you like someone?
-um... ya know I did until I found out they were MARRIED! That was a bit of a turn off ha ha

27. The last song you listened to?
Mannheim Steamroller Christmas songs! :)

Pinapples and Hula skirts

Aloha! I am finally updating my blog! Here's a few of the adventures I've been having in Hawaii. Of course I can't upload them all on here, but if you want to see all of them they are on my facebook in my Aloha Hawaii album! I love it here and can't believe how lucky I am to be here!
This is my dorm room! It's deathly hot, but I love it anyway!
This is my roommate Sami and I at Pearl Harbor a few weeks ago. It was so amazing to see! I had never been there before so I quite enjoyed the experience
My bestest friend Andrea came to visit me last week and oh the fun we had! I was so happy to have a friend from home! This is us after cliff jumping into a pond on one of my favorite hikes in Laie!
This is a cliff at one of my favorite beaches called Waimea Beach. It's a super fun beach and this cliffs are great! Last time we went the waves were massive! I couldn't believe it!


This is a group of friends I went to Waimea with! I can't believe the cultural diversity here! It's amazing. Most of the people in this picture are white, but BYUH has students from 70 different countries! I love it!
This is me attempting to climb a Palm tree! Ha ha it was REALLY hard! But I had fun anyway!

This are two are my good friends here, Lauren and Jeffereson. We were hiking Laie Falls! It's gorgeous!

My adorable roommate Sami and I. We wear flowers in our hair everyday :) I love it! I have a Plumeria tree outside my window that I pick flowers from everyday

Well there's some of my adventures! Hawaii is amazing and I love it here! I have many more adventures planned, but no worries I'm still studying hard....... kinda.... Aloha for now!

Aloha!

The time has finally come for me to move to Hawaii! I can't believe it has come and yet here I sit dying of heat in my dorm room in Hawaii! The journey here was quite the adventure so I thought I would update you all on the fun! So my flight left yesterday morning. We had two layovers.. one in Boise and one in Seatle and then we flew to Honolulu. I know it makes no sense, but it was the cheapest flight so I didn't care. On the first flight to Boise my flipflop decides to break. I have no clue how you manage to break your shoe when you are sitting down, but I did. I was left shoeless for the rest of the journey. My roommate Sami and I were on the same flight together and we both had SOOO much luggage! We looked like complete morons walking to the airports laughing and dropping all our luggage while trying to walk. People kept looking at me like I was diseased for walking around 3 different airports in my barefeet. I'll tell you what, those airport floors are DISGUSTING! We tried going down the escalator with our luggage and I was laughing too hard to be able to stop mine from falling. Sami accidently dropped hers as well but at the top of the escalator and had to go running back up the escalator to try to grab her bag. We eventually made it to Honolulu at ten at night and magically found our shuttle and somehow got even more luggage over to the car. We got to our dorms and we were starving!! There's no nearby Walmart or anything so the only thing we could find was McDonalds which happened to be closed besides the drive thru. Obviously we don't have a car so we tried to walk through the drive thru. It didn't work out so well. We eventually found food and crashed in our beds. We spent the day today wondering around campus and playing in the ocean. It's beautiful here and I love it. I'm finally settled in and ready to start class! I live in a small like hovel like bedroom with a public bathroom and shower down the hall for our use. It's weird. It's bloody hot here and there's no air conditioners so I just sit and die of heat but I'll get used to it! I will post pictures of the new dorm and my adventures so far. The people here are great and I can't wait to start making new friends! It's really different here and it will take some time to get used to it, but I can't believe how blessed I am to be here.The best part is the people here walk around in their barefeet all the time! I'm no longer the only person to walk around public places barefoot! It's great! I can't wait to start the adventure!

Inspiration..

Every once in a while I find something that I know will inspire me for years to come and often I find that inspiration in books. I just read a book called Led By Faith. It's a sequel to Left To Tell which is the MOST amazing book I've ever read. This book talks about a woman's experience during the Rwandan Genocide in 1994. What a terrifying display of human suffering, yet there is beauty and love found in this tragedy and this woman's faith will forever touch my heart. I couldn't help but post some of my favorite quotes from this book. Perhaps it will inspire you as much as it uplifts and inspires me..

But my entire family is gone! Whom can I love now?
Go back into the world and find someone to bless with that same type of love. Give it to someone who has no love at all, such as the homeless, the sick, or the orphaned. Look for the beauty of God in the eyes of a little boy or girl. Find a child whose heart has been shattered, and give him or her some happiness. Remember, all love begins with a smile.
Immaculee Ilibagiza, Led By Faith, p.37

…when we suffer a loss too great to bear, our hearts and minds are open to miracles…
Immaculee Ilibagiza, Led By Faith, p.76

Hatred, anger, mistrust, and fear enter our lives every day in a thousand different ways. We’re all wounded by these evils, but we can all be healed through the power of love and forgiveness—a power readily available to all of us when we have faith.
Immaculee Ilibagiza, Led By Faith, p.192

Faith is a living thing that must be nurtured every day through prayer, kindness, and acts of love. It will lead us through our darkest days and restore love and light to even the most troubled soul in the most dire of circumstances.
Immaculee Ilibagiza, Led By Faith, p.192

She lived with pain, but she also lived with hope. She had faith that God would make each day better than the last, and that was the beginning of happiness.
Immaculee Ilibagiza, Led By Faith, p.196

If the evil that was unleashed here could be conquered with love, where could evil not be conquered? If the hearts of Rwanda could be healed through forgiveness, then what heart couldn’t?
Immaculee Ilibagiza, Led By Faith, p.200

Summer o' fun!

Wow it has been such a fun summer and I have failed to write about any of it! I can't believe August is already here and I leave in a month for Hawaii!! AHH!! This summer I have done my best to fill each and every moment with fun! Here are some pictures of some of the adventures I have had this summer, including random hikes and 4 in the morning, Dancing until one in the morning every night, nannying the cutest kids on the planet, boating every weekend, and much much more!

Sending Rachel off on her mission to the New York, New York Spanish speaking mission! Good luck bud! :) She'll be great!
This is the cute little girl named Breelyn that I babysit for my summer job. We have so much fun! I just adore her!
Hiking Angel's landing with my family! It was such a fun hike!
I went to New York City with my best friend in the world Kelly! We had so much fun! This is us in Times Square. What a blast! Love ya Kell!


Here is Andrea and I about to go boating! We have WAY too much fun together!


Four-wheeling up at the cabin every weekend with my cute little dog Mooshie!!

I couldn't help but put a picture of my cute little cat Bum up here. This is probably his last summer seeing as he looks diseased and he's only half alive. I just love BUM!!

Summer is great! I'll be sure to post more pictures of my adventures later.. but I'm too lazy to do more now :) Enjoy!

For My Bestest Buddy..

I know two blogs in a week.. crazy! But I promised my little buddy I would show her pictures of my most recent mud wrestling fight. It's been raining all week which is rare for Utah! It's been great! I texted everyone in my phone to go mud wrestling and only two people could go.. shame. But it was a blast anyways! Little buddy, just imagine yourself right in this picture all covered in mud with us :) I would somehow edit you in there, but I don't know how, so you get to use your imagination! I love you dearly and am SO SO SO excited for you to come home and play with me! Enjoy!

I found other mud wrestling pics and couldn't help but put them on also.. man we've had some good times! :)

There's many many more just not on my computer at this moment :)

Road to Insanity

Sometimes my life can be really interesting. On Saturday my sister insisted that I drive down to Sandy to pick her up from her friends house and I reluctantly agreed as long as it didn't take too long.. yeah right. The drive down was okay.. it only took about an hour to get there although I'm not gonna lie I was in quite a bad mood by the time I did. Then as we start heading back up I realized my hopes of getting anything done that day would be dashed. Traffic was horrendous! I don't know if any of you have had the chance to drive northbound on I-15 but they closed off the entire freeway. Rachel and I were stuck in stand still traffic for 3 hours. Obviously we had to find new ways of entertaining ourselves. We began to dance like crazy people. Rachel got out her makeup bag and we began to draw on each others faces with eyeliner. We made each other each have a huge unibrow, a mustash and a beard. That combined with our insane dancing and singing at the top of our lungs with the windows down was plenty of entertainment for those around us. Suddenly I realized I had to go to the bathroom and could no longer hold it. We were no where near an exit and it would be at least an hour before the next one. I saw no other option but going in the bushes! I made Rachel switch into the driver seat while the car was still moving through traffic. I ran out of the car and dodged the slow moving cars to get to the side of the road. I hopped over the barrier and into a bunch of long cat tails. Obviously every car on that strip of freeway saw me go into the bushes and they all knew what I was doing. The bushes were full of mud and I came out covered in mud, with a big grin on my now hairy looking face. I ran back into the car where Rachel sat laughing uncontrollably. Needless to say the cars around us were giving us all kinds of looks, but I think we may have brightened their day by entertaining them while stuck in traffic. Just to make matters worse Rachel and I decided to go to IHOP before we went home because we were starving from all that dancing in the car. We went into IHOP with unibrows, mustaches, and beards and I was covered in mud. The waitress avoided eye contact with us and the looks we got were priceless. Although I spent 4 hours just driving on Saturday I have to say it was quite the adventure!

Mud, Mud, Mud!!

I've always been a huge fan of mud wrestling. As many of my friends know it involves tackling each other in the mud and of course the steam roller! Once we finish we have to walk home covered in mud as people driving past gawk at the mud monsters walking by. I've reached the ultimate mud wrestling experience now.. mud wrestling in the front yard! How convenient! You don't even have to leave your property to get muddy! Our front lawn is being replaced so we currently have dirt for a lawn.. and when it rains we have MUD! The perfect mud to wrestle in. Rachel and I discovered this late one night and just couldn't resist the temptation. After watching Nacho Libre we had to try out the new moves we learned! Mud wrestling will never get old. I've loved it all my life and will continue to love it forever! My kids better like getting dirty because they won't have much of a choice with me! ;)

The Power of Music

My whole life I've always loved music. Dancing, singing, playing paino, anything. I love it. Yet sometimes I am still so surprised at the power music has over my soul. I still am amazed at the feeling I get when I listen to something that empowers me. I can't even express in words the ability music has to affect my life. I don't think anyone can quite express the power music has over mankind. Of course there is the music that can so easily bring your spirit down, but when you hear that music that has the ability to lift it back up it's amazing the results you get. I listen to music constantly. At work, at school, while I exercise, while I clean, everywhere. I am so grateful for such an uplifting gift in my life. Music is my inspiration. It's what keeps me motivated in life.

Hee Hee..

Letting Myself Go..

So you know how people always say women let themselves go after they have children? They seem to stop caring about how they themselves look and worry just about their children. That's the way it's supposed to go right? Well I've recently come to the conclusion that I began that process a bit too early. College has been the reason for me letting myself go. It's true. I'm nasty and disgusting looking and I couldn't care less! I absolutely despise wearing make-up, I haven't straightened my hair since Christmas Break, I wear the same clothes over and over and keep in mind they aren't cute clothes.. they're sweat pants and t-shirts. I tend to sleep in the same things I wear to school and then wear them again the next day.. just cause I'm too lazy to actually take the time to find new clothes in the morning. I'm basically disgusting! It's too bad I started this process so early in life.. now I'll never get married. Meh, what can you do? Some things just aren't meant to happen. I've embraced it..



Yep... that's me!! :) And of course my cute little friend Andrea!

Hidden from the World

It's 2:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. I have to wake up at 6:30 and I absolutely despise not getting enough sleep at night. I just don't function when I'm tired, or maybe it's all in my head and I just tell myself I can't. It's one of those nights where I can't get my brain to shut off. There is so much to think about and it just absolutely refuses to go to bed, so here I sit. I wish at times I could be more free in my writing. I get so concerned about letting too much of myself out for others to see. There's so much going on in my life that I wish I could just express it all right now. How therapeutic that would be, but I can't bring myself to expose that much of my heart. I know if I learned to open up more, things would be different, but it's just not in my nature. I so appreciate those people in my life who can understand me without me having to tell them anything. What a special bond it creates in my life and one that is desperately needed. Although the number of those people are few, the effects are huge. It's an ongoing battle within myself to express my thoughts and feelings freely or to keep them hidden away safe from the world. Someday I'll win that battle I hope. I'm fixing things in my life right now. Hopefully I can find peace and I will being able to sleep at night once more.

Life

So I really have nothing profound or entertaining to write about, but I feel like writing so I'm going to. I keep counting down the days until school is out and I swear on my life the number keeps getting bigger. I'm sad that I'll have to leave everyone in my ward because I know it's not very likely I will see them again, but the thought of moving home without having homework all the time just makes me so happy! It's so hard to keep up the motivation to study. I have three exams this week and I can't concentrate to take one of them. I have to take my anatomy test in an hour and I'm only halfway through studying, yet here I sit, writing pointless crap on my blog that no one will really care to read. So I started to re-read the book Left To Tell. I forgot how life changing that book is. I read it and I am blown away. My thoughts are constantly drawn to that book and it really touches every aspect of my life. There are some things in life that are so touching and I wish I knew how to write so I could fully express the way they make me feel, but I don't so you are left in the dark until you read that book for yourself. It's funny how sometimes I get in these really weird moods where nothing in life matters but the relationships I have with people. I often am blown away when I realize how lucky I am for the people and examples I have in my life. I know that God has a hand in everything including my life.

You say goodbye, I say hello..

I said goodbye to another best friend today. I feel like this is goodbye to my old life. Everything has changed now, and the next stage in life is beginning. All my best friends from high school are now spread throughout the world. We all are moving our new directions, saying goodbye to our old lives, and hello to the new ones. I'm going to miss the way things used to be. I don't handle change well, but life is always good and I can't wait to begin the next adventure in life.

"No friendship can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever."~Francois Mauriac

My Darling Little Wench . . .

Little wench, I had to make this post because I felt bad that I ruined your blog. I will find a way to make it up to you. So here it goes, a post about Care on her own blog.

This is our very own little wench. Despite how things look, you had better believe that she knows how to rock out. Good times. She loves to go boating and loves to make a fool of herself even more. Put the two together and it makes for a very entertaining boating trip. (Caw Caw Caw!)

This is a picture of the leech with her friends Mike and Chris. Well, they would have us believe that they are friends but I think this picture sheds some light on how they really feel about each other. Mike is just always happy, Chris is about to be hung unbeknown to him and Cara is worried for her life because she is stuck in the middle of all of it.

Now that we are getting to know the little vermin a little bit better, I find it safe to tell you that she is disgusting. If it isn't cake it's snot. Actually in the second picture Chris is the one going for the nose. That makes him the disgusting one. Thank you wench for always finding a good reason to get dirty. Life just isn't as fun when you are clean, I learned that from you.

This picture I had to add. Even though I look hideous, the wench looks so cute and she is wearing a hat that she made all by herself. Believe it or not she does have some talents that aren't destructive or lead to sudden illness or death.
Wench, I love you so much. When I count my blessings I count you a million times. Thank you for being my best friend, for making me jump out of airplanes and for always singing louder than me so no one has to hear my horrible voice. You make me the best person I can be, no one could ask for a better friend than you. I love you like a dung beetle loves dung.

Just for fun..

LAST:​
Last perso​n you hugge​d? Megan after class today
Last perso​n to call you? Cynthia..
When was the last time you felt stupi​d? This morning when I failed my quiz in class.. fun stuff
What was the last thing​ you yelle​d? .. doesn't barking out the window count?

FACTS​:
​1.​Homet​own? Layton, Utah
2.Natur​al Hair Color​? Dirty Blond
3.Initi​als? CC
4.Hair style​?​ longish.. brown.. Katherine cut it and it's a box dye so not too cute :)
5.Eye color​? Brown
6.Heigh​t? 5' 31/2" on a good day
7.Pets? Meisha!! The cutest dog in the world! and bum.. the ugliest cat in the world but oh how I love him!
8.Mood? Content, calm
9.Where​ would​ you rathe​r be? At home.. I'd give anything to be home with friends and family right now
10.What was the last thing​ that you had to drink​? Water from the Gold's Gym drinking fountain

THING​S ABOUT​ YOUR LOVE LIFE:​
1.Have you ever been in love? I don't think I know what love is.. so how would I know
2.Do you belie​ve in love? Yes of course
3.Why did your last relat​ionsh​ip fail? Cause it didn't exist? I don't think I'd consider any of the last flings relationships
4.Have you ever been heart​broke​n? Yes.
5.Have you ever broke​n someo​ne'​s heart​? Also yes.
6.Have you ever falle​n for your best frien​d (oppos​ite sex)? Yes, still am fallen
7.Have you ever loved​ someo​ne but never​ told them? Yes.
8.​Are you afrai​d of commi​tment​? I'd defiently have to go with yes
9.Have you had more than five diffe​rent serio​us relat​ionsh​ips in your life? No.

EMOTI​ONS:​
1.Are you missi​ng someo​ne right​ now? More than ever before
2.Are you happy​? I think I will be.. right now I can't say
3.Are you eatin​g anyth​ing? No, I'm starving though
4. Do you like someo​ne right​ now? Yes, I think so
5. Does your ex hate you? Never had one.. officially anyway
6. Have you ever kisse​d anyon​e whose​ name start​ed with a R? Yes..
7. Would​ you get marri​ed if you could​ right​ now? Oh no no no! I could not handle that right now
8. Is the last perso​n you kisse​d mad at you? I think so honestly, but I'll never really know
9. How old are you? 19 1/2
10. Are you in a good mood?​ indifferent
11. Do you prefe​r warm or cold weath​er?​​​ warm.. today was warm, loved it
12. Is any part of your body sore?​​ Yes, my abs from the gym
13. Do you care if peopl​e hate you for no reaso​n?​​​ Oh yes, it bothers me more than anything
​14. Still​ talk to any of your exes?​ if you consider them exs.. then yes one of them
15. Do you miss anyon​e right​ now? Yes, yes more and more by the minute
16. Lose a best frien​d latel​y?​​​ Yes and my heart is broken, I don't think it can go back
17. Who is the last perso​n you texte​d?​ Cynthia
18. Have you told anybo​dy you loved​ them today​ and meant​ it? Yes, Kelly, Cynthia, Katherine, Megan, Dad..
19. What'​​​s worse​, liars​ or cheat​ers? I don't have tolerance for liars, it's personal. But I hate both
20. Is it easie​r to forgi​ve or forge​t?​​​ Forgive, although both seem hard at times
21. Can men and women​ be "​​​Just Frien​ds"​​​?​ ​​ All the time
22. Would​ you live with someo​ne witho​ut marry​ing them?​​ Absolutely not.
23. Ever kisse​d a rando​m perso​n and then walke​d away?​​ No, I always wanted to though
24. Are you a beach​,​​​ count​ry,​​​ or city perso​n?​​​ Beach, I could spend my life living on the beach
25. When you marry​ will you wear white​?​​​ Of course.
26. What'​​​s wrong​ with you right​ now? a little upset and uneasy. I wish I knew what to do
27. Are you excit​ed about​ anyth​ing?​​​ I'm so excited for school to get out, I don't know what i'll do after, but it's keeping me going right now
28. Do you think​ that you'r​e a good perso​n?​​​ Yes, I think so, I try my best and He'll make up the difference
29. Do you hate the last girl you were talki​ng to? Not at all, I didn't think I could ever hate anyone, but sometimes I have to question myself
30. Have you held hands​ with anyon​e today​?​ No
31. Do you want someo​ne back?​​​ Yes more than anything
32. Why do peopl​e conti​nue to smoke​ when they know the effec​ts of it? Addiction.
33. Have you known​ any of your frien​ds for your whole​ life?​ Kelly
34. Does anyon​e love you? Yes, and I wouldn't be able to survive without that love
35. How has the week been?​ harder than expected, stressful, and an emotional rollercoaster
36. Do you walk aroun​d naked​?​​​ at times..
37. Has anyon​e ever seen you in your under​wear?​ Yep!
38. Is there​ a perso​n of the oppos​ite sex you care alot about​?​ Yes, there are many
39. Whats​ on your sched​ule for tomor​row?​ School, take my insane Anatomy midterm, more school and study for my next midterm..

Spontaneous road trip!

We all took a spontaneous road trip to California and Vegas. We stayed at our friend Sami's dad's house in Cali and had a blast! We went to the beach.. which was freezing but so so fun and we also went to downtown Disney. It was quite the adventure. We spent our last night in Vegas and walked the strip! It was so so fun.. minus the porn and smoke. We rode the New York New York roller coaster and saw everything until we were too tired to see anymore. I never want to ride in the car again, but it was worth the 12 hour drive for a weekend of fun!

Vienna

Slow down, you crazy child you're so ambitious for a juvenile But then if you're so smart, tell me Why are you still so afraid? Where's the fire, what's the hurry about? You'd better cool it off before you burn it out You've got so much to do and Only so many hours in a day But you know that when the truth is told.. That you can get what you want or you get old You're gonna kick off before you even Get halfway through When will you realize, Vienna waits for you? Slow down, you're doing fine You can't be everything you want to be Before your time Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight Tonight,... Too bad but it's the life you lead you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need Though you can see when you're wrong, you know You can't always see when you're right. you're right You've got your passion, you've got your pride but don't you know that only fools are satisfied? Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true When will you realize, Vienna waits for you? Slow down, you crazy child and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two When will you realize,..Vienna waits for you? And you know that when the truth is told that you can get what you want or you can just get old You're gonna kick off before you even get half through Why don't you realize,. Vienna waits for you When will you realize, Vienna waits
for you?

The words to this song are amazing. I had to post them for you to read and ponder yourselves. I love this song

Sabriel's roommate Brenda threw her a surprise birthday party so Larrabee, Katherine, Mike and I all went up to Salt Lake for the Black tie event! It was a blast! Happy Birthday Sabs!

Best Friends!!

just discovered some great pics of my best friends in the world! Here's to my best friend Kelly. I just love you!