It's 2:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. I have to wake up at 6:30 and I absolutely despise not getting enough sleep at night. I just don't function when I'm tired, or maybe it's all in my head and I just tell myself I can't. It's one of those nights where I can't get my brain to shut off. There is so much to think about and it just absolutely refuses to go to bed, so here I sit. I wish at times I could be more free in my writing. I get so concerned about letting too much of myself out for others to see. There's so much going on in my life that I wish I could just express it all right now. How therapeutic that would be, but I can't bring myself to expose that much of my heart. I know if I learned to open up more, things would be different, but it's just not in my nature. I so appreciate those people in my life who can understand me without me having to tell them anything. What a special bond it creates in my life and one that is desperately needed. Although the number of those people are few, the effects are huge. It's an ongoing battle within myself to express my thoughts and feelings freely or to keep them hidden away safe from the world. Someday I'll win that battle I hope. I'm fixing things in my life right now. Hopefully I can find peace and I will being able to sleep at night once more.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
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Don't hold it in, Care Bear. It's not healthy. Just remember that while you have people who understand you without you having to say a thing, those are the same people who would love to listen and wouldn't judge. :) Emotions are meant to be let out-- especially when you have friends as great as yours! :)
I love you! And I'll always be here-- whether for a hug or a shoulder to lean or cry on, I'll be here. No judging. Just here for you. :) I'm a great listener. :)
Meow! :)
Little Buddy, I Love You!
care, i love you. you are magnificent and I am grateful for the moments we you and i have been able to open up to each other. i am more grateful for you than you can imagine.
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